"Why" is a constant question...

yet there is no answer.

[this is a ramble post. You do not have to read it, I am giving you a prior warning]

Easter is almost over, in three days time I will return to university. I guess this Easter hasn't been the best but when is Easter ever great? Easter = Revision = Hell! But this year it has been much more concentrated solely on work. My friends, myself and my brother. If only work could be "fun". *sigh*

I am ever so behind on my work. I constantly remind myself to work but yet I still procrastinate. I'm aggravated, I do not understand why I am so tempted to media websites. I clearly understand I have work to do but there is a voice inside me that says it's alright. It is NOT okay. I must work or I will fail my exams. I do not accept failure very well, my internship and applications have not had a fine turn out but I at least still want to perfect well in my exams. It is the one thing I have control over. Only I can determine this outcome. I, myself is the only barrier.

It agitates me even more where I constantly remind myself that I will apply for jobs and internships that are still live. BUT instead it's all thoughts and no actions. Is it too early to think what I want to do with my life? Is God telling me a sign? Is he teaching me a lesson? That perseverance is the real lesson? Overcoming obstacles? I need to need to need to get into shape.

Is it selfish to say I want to rich? I admit I love money, I was told at a young age I loved money. I chose to ignore it because naive as I was I believed that the value of life was not determined by jewels. I accept the thought because having travelled to China and experiencing a simple lifestyle; I agree happiness can be achieved very simply, money cannot buy happiness. But money can BUY a lifestyle and living. I come from a humble family, my parents are humble but they are strong. Though I may not understand their financial crisis, I understand the difficulty in paying off their debts in this terrible financial economy. The stress they experience compared to my work stress leaves mine as a minority. Another reason why I am agitated with myself. I want to make a change for my parents, I want to provide them with a better life but I don't know where to start.

As these tears tremble down, I ask myself: am I not capable to make this change?

A Great Mark in the British History

Congratulations to the newly wedded William and Kate!!

A day not to be forgotten. The impact of the wedding was phenomenal and the service in Westminster Abbey was the creme de la creme amongst the nation's heart.

It was a real fairy tale witnessed by millions around the world! Signifying true love.

They have a movie released based on them called "William and Kate - The Movie", I really want to see it but I missed it on channel 5. Will need to watch it online, heard it's cheesy but it's just such a sweet relationship.

Just awwhhhh.

Much Love,

Chu xx

Dreams

I want to be successful through my own efforts,

with the hands that God gave us.

Young or old,

we have the ability to make a mark in the world we live in.

In the Open

Ever since coming back to London I don't think I had left the house for as long as today and had enjoyed as much fun! Thank you Priscilla for a wonderful day :)

We went to Westfield in London and surprise surprise I was late. I should really ought to be on time next time, I always make her wait ><. Luckily this time she had her sister's company but I should really improve on my time keeping. So we spent two hours in Boots, insaneeeeee!!! We went a little crazy on make up. It was doing an offer of 3 for 2 afterall, every right to be crazy!! Despite spending a huge amount of time in Boots, I also spent an awfull amount of money in there too. Nevermind. Im just so excitedddd for the purchases!!!

So I bought....

This is a face scrub that is formulated to be gentle on the skin. Especially useful if you have sensitive like me. It contains exfoliating beads to literally scrub away dirt on your face and enable new skin to regenerate. Hopefully it does what it says, I need to sort out my blemishes and acne big time

Now for make up, the GOODIESS!!

I bought this cream blush by Max Factor in soft pink. A majority of the brands failed to deliver a cream blush, all had power formulas and it just wasn't what I looking for. Walked around in circles and saw this. Still yet to try it on my skin.

Revlon Lipstick in smoked peach. This is a matte formula compared to their rich moisture products. I don't personally wear that much on my lips but I guess it deserves a bit of colour so I purchased this. It has a slight shimmer to it (sigh), but hopefully it doesn't make my lips look greasy and big compared to the others I purchased in the past.

Barry M Nail Paint in Mushroom colour. The first product I picked up, I am slowly beginning an obsession with nail varnish. I was never a nails person but it is literally so much FUN when you're painting you're nails. I sometime wish I had more fingers for that reason. Am so so excited to test this colour.

Bourjois Paris Nail Polish in Bleu Asphalte. One nail polish would just not be enough. HAD to buy this one. Love the colour and also cannot wait to paint with it. Maybe I should alternate the colours when I paint on my nails. How cool would that look?

Revlon ColourStay in Lavender Meadow. Have wanted a purple eyeshadow for a while, so thought to purchase this because it is a quad set. So blend blend away.

MaxFactor Loose Powder in Translucent colour

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Bourjois Paris, Felt-tip eyeliner. Hopefully it is 24hour stay like it states!

So those were my purchases for the day. Am pretty pleased with them all and hopefully its result matches. Please be aware that I am not affliated with any of the brands. Everything written here is of my own opinion.

Sorry if this post has bore you, was quite excited with the purchases and wanted to blog about it.

Royal Wedding this friday, cannot wait!!!

Much Love,

Chu xx

Rome was not built in one day

Oh wow, it's been a while since my last update. I am already returning to London tomorrow, how time flies when your "revising".

Well apart from revising, I spent the weekend in Loughborough to visit my dear friend Carman. It was a fabulous weekend and it was lovely to see her again. I reckon the weekend made me reflect how little time I have left till exams and that I need to start cracking on revision. So that's what I did, I visited the library yesterday and it was a productive day. However today productivity came crashing down! I need to lock away my laptop.

So let's talk about my time in Loughborough. Carman's housemates were all really lovely and it nice to sit down with them and have dinner!! I'd ate on my own in the past few days so was nice to share dinner with others.

Her housemates are all very strong christians and a majority of the things they do are to serve God. In a positive way I felt closer to God after staying with them for a weekend. Staying with them and listening to Carman's experiences of God, made me think the power of praying and the chance to reflect upon it. It made me think...when I was a kid I always prayed to God so why have I stopped now? I shouldn't pray to God only when I want something because that isn't the point in praying right? It is a way to build your relationship with God. Carman's experiences with prayers made me realise that God does answer your prayers. I have always believed that "good things happen to those who do good things" but at times this may not even be valid. For even the nicest person they will still undergo punishment. It is a matter of time and belief for God to answer your prayers and when in need he is there for you. Please God, please answer my prayers.

I need to procrastinate less and do more work!!! REMEMBER THAT CHRISTINE!!!!

I really really really want an internship this summer. I dream of working this summer but plans haven't gone to plan and I have just received rejections upon rejections. I hope through my hard work and the mistakes I have made in the past will bring me opportunities. I just need to remember that the hard work will pay off and you will be granted with the effort that you put in. Opportunities do not come suddenly. You have to work for it. Likewise Rome was not built within a day.

Much Love,

Chu xx

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

To an awesome person, best friend and sister!!!!

I wish you the very best for the following year and that your life is full of smiles! :)

Have an amazing time in Canada!

I miss you very much x

Much Love,

Chu

I wish....

I had the talent to sing and play the guitar. I love acoustic music and basically at the moment I spend most of my life procrastinating on youtube!!

Check out amazing talent like this:

Enjoyy!!

Much Love,

Chu x

A View from my Window.

I love sunsets, I prefer it compared to sunrises. Preferably because I am more of a night person. The sunset marks the end of the day- whether it was a stressful or relaxing day it is a time to reflect upon the day. Not too great if you wake up late.

I managed to catch the beautiful sunset through my window. The sun does wonders :)

Hope you enjoy the photos and love the sun just as much as I do.

Much Love.

Chu xx

A Weekend of Reunions

Firstly, I would like to say a big happy birthday to two great friends from uni, Alice and Haz, hope you both have an amazing day!! It's been a great pleasure knowing you both!

So my weekend? My weekend started on friday!! It was a weekend of reunions, saw friends I hadnt seen for months and even since last summer.

Friday started off at Buckingham palace, it was beautiful to view London on a sunny day. We were blessed with a week of sunshine and it was the perfect time to make the most of it. Im glad I had the opportunity to experience it.

We went to the Science Museum in South Kensington, it brang childhood memories back. When I was younger, we use to go on school trips to the museum. You would of thought the novelty would have worn out by now but it was still so much fun! We also experienced going to space and had water sprayed in our faces.

Some silhouette photographs.

Went out for dinner on saturday with another group of friends. We had thai food, it was really nice however over priced and my belly was not half filled at the end of it. However we did have a cheeky dessert after it, I guess this is what I miss from being in London.

Lastly on Sunday I went to the pub to meet a few friends I used to go school with. Last time I saw them was in February, was absolutely a pleasure to see them all again. You dont notice time flies until you see them and how much you actually miss their presence until you experience it. Having given up alcohol for Lent, I obviously was not allowed to drink but I still had just as much fun as everyone else. On top of that, we played football. Well I just stood around while they played because I was wearing very unpractical sandals! However the sun made up for it.

I am building an interest in photography and obviously with the sun around, I made the most of it with my little digital camera.

Speaking of which, I have been trying to save up money for a SLR. Hoping that one day when I get it, it will be the beginning to the journey for my photography. However being a university student, it is not easy to save money. I have been asked numerous times why I should bother spending so much on a camera when I have a digital camera. Well it is something that only a photographer can understand. There is more depth to a picture than its surface. People who appreciate photography read beyond the picture itself. It is form of art that I wish to pursue in my lifetime.

Thank you for reading.

New objectives for this blog

I dont want this blog to sound daunting, because that isn't the point of blogging is it? Hopefully this blog will give a more rounded view of the person I am.

Objectives for this blog:

• upload more photographs, a place to showcase my photography skills
• do what i most enjoy, post up fashion pieces
• showcase the joys in my life

It's never too late to start again.

After going through a few months of hell, happiness and laughters I have randomly landed back on my blog. I always try and put in the effort to update you everyday, but I just can possibly remember. This brain of mine needs updating, if I want to be successful in the future I better whip into shape!

I've always wanted to start writing a diary, but I guess this is why you blog. It's the electronic version of a diary? I know i'm weird. I guess blogging is another way of talking to yourself, something I am an absolute pro in!

Currently I am on easter break, would not had needed it more than now! Second year of university has stepped up its game and yet I feel I have not stepped up for the game! The past seven months of university has made me realise and learn that I do not deal with pressure very well. Always start early is the key. Should not get distracted easily. But that's just the way I am.

It's never too late to start again.