Thought of the Day: Success

Success does not come to those who wait. 

 Success comes to those who strive.

Enough is enough

My mind is going round in circles,

I want to shed away from reality,

It's not long to go,

But I want it all to stop now.

Day 5: 30 Day Challenge

I am uber late with this post, i am going to try and catch up with all my challenges though it depicts the point of the challenge. Im sorry but I have realised I have neglected my blog during exam season and I really want to get back into it.

Day 5: A song that matches your mood

I am loving this song at the moment

It is a song I am loving but not a song to match my mood. Therefore this would be more appropriate

Feeling absolutely meh after my second exam. I know it is petty to feel awful after an exam because it has happened but I cant control my feelings. Just want to snuggle under a blanket and escape from the real world. I hate exams.

Hope you enjoy the songs! :)

Much Love,

Chu xx

"Why" is a constant question...

yet there is no answer.

[this is a ramble post. You do not have to read it, I am giving you a prior warning]

Easter is almost over, in three days time I will return to university. I guess this Easter hasn't been the best but when is Easter ever great? Easter = Revision = Hell! But this year it has been much more concentrated solely on work. My friends, myself and my brother. If only work could be "fun". *sigh*

I am ever so behind on my work. I constantly remind myself to work but yet I still procrastinate. I'm aggravated, I do not understand why I am so tempted to media websites. I clearly understand I have work to do but there is a voice inside me that says it's alright. It is NOT okay. I must work or I will fail my exams. I do not accept failure very well, my internship and applications have not had a fine turn out but I at least still want to perfect well in my exams. It is the one thing I have control over. Only I can determine this outcome. I, myself is the only barrier.

It agitates me even more where I constantly remind myself that I will apply for jobs and internships that are still live. BUT instead it's all thoughts and no actions. Is it too early to think what I want to do with my life? Is God telling me a sign? Is he teaching me a lesson? That perseverance is the real lesson? Overcoming obstacles? I need to need to need to get into shape.

Is it selfish to say I want to rich? I admit I love money, I was told at a young age I loved money. I chose to ignore it because naive as I was I believed that the value of life was not determined by jewels. I accept the thought because having travelled to China and experiencing a simple lifestyle; I agree happiness can be achieved very simply, money cannot buy happiness. But money can BUY a lifestyle and living. I come from a humble family, my parents are humble but they are strong. Though I may not understand their financial crisis, I understand the difficulty in paying off their debts in this terrible financial economy. The stress they experience compared to my work stress leaves mine as a minority. Another reason why I am agitated with myself. I want to make a change for my parents, I want to provide them with a better life but I don't know where to start.

As these tears tremble down, I ask myself: am I not capable to make this change?

Dreams

I want to be successful through my own efforts,

with the hands that God gave us.

Young or old,

we have the ability to make a mark in the world we live in.

Rome was not built in one day

Oh wow, it's been a while since my last update. I am already returning to London tomorrow, how time flies when your "revising".

Well apart from revising, I spent the weekend in Loughborough to visit my dear friend Carman. It was a fabulous weekend and it was lovely to see her again. I reckon the weekend made me reflect how little time I have left till exams and that I need to start cracking on revision. So that's what I did, I visited the library yesterday and it was a productive day. However today productivity came crashing down! I need to lock away my laptop.

So let's talk about my time in Loughborough. Carman's housemates were all really lovely and it nice to sit down with them and have dinner!! I'd ate on my own in the past few days so was nice to share dinner with others.

Her housemates are all very strong christians and a majority of the things they do are to serve God. In a positive way I felt closer to God after staying with them for a weekend. Staying with them and listening to Carman's experiences of God, made me think the power of praying and the chance to reflect upon it. It made me think...when I was a kid I always prayed to God so why have I stopped now? I shouldn't pray to God only when I want something because that isn't the point in praying right? It is a way to build your relationship with God. Carman's experiences with prayers made me realise that God does answer your prayers. I have always believed that "good things happen to those who do good things" but at times this may not even be valid. For even the nicest person they will still undergo punishment. It is a matter of time and belief for God to answer your prayers and when in need he is there for you. Please God, please answer my prayers.

I need to procrastinate less and do more work!!! REMEMBER THAT CHRISTINE!!!!

I really really really want an internship this summer. I dream of working this summer but plans haven't gone to plan and I have just received rejections upon rejections. I hope through my hard work and the mistakes I have made in the past will bring me opportunities. I just need to remember that the hard work will pay off and you will be granted with the effort that you put in. Opportunities do not come suddenly. You have to work for it. Likewise Rome was not built within a day.

Much Love,

Chu xx

A View from my Window.

I love sunsets, I prefer it compared to sunrises. Preferably because I am more of a night person. The sunset marks the end of the day- whether it was a stressful or relaxing day it is a time to reflect upon the day. Not too great if you wake up late.

I managed to catch the beautiful sunset through my window. The sun does wonders :)

Hope you enjoy the photos and love the sun just as much as I do.

Much Love.

Chu xx

It's never too late to start again.

After going through a few months of hell, happiness and laughters I have randomly landed back on my blog. I always try and put in the effort to update you everyday, but I just can possibly remember. This brain of mine needs updating, if I want to be successful in the future I better whip into shape!

I've always wanted to start writing a diary, but I guess this is why you blog. It's the electronic version of a diary? I know i'm weird. I guess blogging is another way of talking to yourself, something I am an absolute pro in!

Currently I am on easter break, would not had needed it more than now! Second year of university has stepped up its game and yet I feel I have not stepped up for the game! The past seven months of university has made me realise and learn that I do not deal with pressure very well. Always start early is the key. Should not get distracted easily. But that's just the way I am.

It's never too late to start again.